Daydreams...

I wanted to write something, but I really don’t now what to say. I just know that I’m filled with lots of dreams nowadays. I’m surprised because I realised that my job will give me the chance to do many things that I’ve always wanted to do, but I could not. I’m thinking of visiting some friends that I have here in Brazil, and yesterday I realised that I can go to London and stay there for one month! It will be a dream that will come true. I visited EF English International School website, I saw the prices and I know that I can travel! That’s wonderful!

I have a friend that lives in London. And I have another friend that lives in Europe, a person that I cherish very much. I’ll able to visit them, to meet them...it’s marvelous!

Now I realised ( and I used this word three times in this entry...) that I’m blessed because I got this job. I’ll be an independent girl...and more: I’ll be able to make my dreams come true! Okay, I said it before. The first thing that I need to do is: improve my English. I don’t want to go to London with my actual English language skills. I want more. More. And I know I’ll reach what I’m longing for. I know that I can. I’m a winner. Now I know that. And I’m very happy...

Discoveries and gifts

It's so good to realise that the things are going fine. The physician said I'm suitable to work. I bought part of the furniture today, at least my bedroom is ready, and the computer has its own table. The rest will be ready later. It's good to realise that in the end of the year the things that I longed for are coming true. I know that I fought, I suffered a lot, I studied a lot, I thought that I had lost the chance to get this job three times, but in the end everything went fine. And it's so great to see my parents helping me a lot, going out to buy the things that I need (all the debts are in my dad's name, because I have no pay slip yet) even when they are tired after working during all the day. And it's so cool to see my mom holding on to the note of the things that I have to buy, making lines over the words of the things that I've already bought, and reminding what we still have to get, even making some counts and trying to find out how much I'll have to pay. And I know that it's not control, it's love. I'm feeling how much my parents love me and care about me as I have never felt. And that's wonderful. I'll never be able to thank them for the attention and caring that they gave me during these last days. Maybe they always cared about me and I have never realised (and it's very problable) and I got this new perception because of the pshychoanalysis sessions (and it's very very probable). I don't know. I just know that it's very good to move from my parent's house at the moment when I am feeling this way: loved. That's the best Christmas gift that I could earn.

Happy end...or happy beginning?

Preparations. I have to pass through many exams, even a psychiatric exam! The Court doesn't want to have mad people working there. I liked very much the psychiatrist that met me: I would not mind if I had to be his patient :D

I'll have to rent a house.Yes, I'll live far from my parents. I feel a bit worried and sad, but the birds were created to fly, right?

I have to buy things to my house. Ack. A lot of things! I'll rest just when I have my house with all things that I need...

I saw the guy that will work with me.It seems he was in a bad mood, but I liked him. I hope we can be great friends.

That's all. Next year I'll start a new life. A new life filled with new experiences, challenges, achiviements, mistakes and vitory. I'm very happy.

God is an Awesome God

I'm very happy because He gave me a job. I have been waiting for so long time, and studying a lot. Friday I'll go to the Court to choose the city where I want to live. Soon I'll be living in another city, in my own house, enjoying my job and my new life. I'm very glad, and I thank Jesus for this blessing.

Jesus, I love you! You're my Beloved Saviour, my Wonderful Friend!