Gosh

Sometimes we have to face strange situations. That's how I'm feeling right now. We never know the moment when a storm will arise inside ourselves. But it often arise when we aren't waiting for it. I have a storm inside myself and I really don't know what to do. The questions that I face now are bigger than I can deal with. And the answers that I need to find must be hidden in some far place. I'd like to be far from here, far from me.

I'm trying to fill my time with a lot of things. I read articles about International Relations, I have ballroom dance classes, I study German, I want to study French. What do I want? What am I looking for? It's not just about filling my time, it's not just about gathering knowledge. It's more. And this more is something that I want, and I don't have. Maybe it's what I'm looking for for all my life. Maybe it's just curiosity. Maybe I'm just a coward girl that can't confess that is longing for having her own family. And why can't she confess? Because she feels unable to get it! I feel unable to get it. I'm weak, pampered, stupid...no, I'm a loser! She can't confess that is longing for having her own family because if she'll confess...she'll feel as a loser. I'm a loser. I think I'm unable to...oh Gosh. I know I'm attractive, smart, witty...so what's the problem, girl? I don't know. I'm getting crazy.

Forgive me.

Wonderfuuuuuuuuul!

Ballroom dance claaaaaaass!! I love it! Today my partner was a girl that is one of the Dance School monitors: she is nice and dances very well, so I could learn a bit more about bolero, "soltinho" and samba! Well, at least I could dance a song with a boy (also a monitor), and it was wonderfuuuuuuuuuuuuuul! He dances verrrrry welll and I loved to dance "Unbreak my heart" by Toni Braxton with him!!! Can you see? I'm addicted! Addicted to dance classes! And I'm so happy and so pleased! :D

I think you should try to have dance classes...those who dance are happier! ;D

What a surprise! I had ballroom dance classes today! I'm surprised! I thought I was the most clumsy people in the world, but I was wrong! Today I had my first class and one teacher told me that I was dancing better than some students that are having classes for two weeks! :) I really learnt very faaaaaast, it was wonderrfuuuuuuuuuuuuuul! I'm so proud of myself! :) Now I want to have English and French classes! :) I still don't know what to do about my future. Do I wanna be a judge? A diplomat? I don't know. I just know I have to study very much. Oh, it's so hard to choose. Oh Gosh. Well...guys. This girl is really happy today :D YOu have to give me congratulations!! :D

I'm looking for...

Hallo boys! Well...I think I just have two readers: Jayan, my Indian friend, and Marcin, my Polish friend :) It's good enough :D

Well...finally I've found the kind of man whom I would like to get marry. I'd like he was humble and liked cooking and taking care of kids. I'd like he liked helping to clean the house and doing things to maintain it always nice and pleasant. He should to consider his family as the most important thing on the world, but God, of course. He should be a daddy that is always interested in kid's life and in their needs and thoughts. He should be a person that admires and respect me. I'd love to admire and respect him, too. That's all. If I find this man, I'll be the happiest girl in the world! :)

I think I'll attend ballroom dance classes (I don't know if it's the right word...) I think it'll be good :)

Happy Mother's Day to your moms, guys! :)

Right path

Hello, my friends! How are you? I'm fine, really fine...I think I'm destroying the obstacles and I'm growing up! And I'm so happy! It's so good to say "I'm happy" right now! I was so sad before...today I'm brilliant.

And I think that...good things are coming soon. I'm longing for them! Oh, there are some things that I want to reach, I need to reach. I'm going to do. I'm sure.

I'm in the right path, it's the most important thing. Isn't it? ;)