What can I do?

I'm feeling really bad, I'm suffering a lot. It's so hard to know that a friend is suffering and to realize that you can't do anything to help him! I'd do everything so that he felt better. I'd even like to give my support and tell him that I care about him, but I can't. I know how much proud he is, and I'm afraid of he thinks I just have pain on him. It's not this. I just like him very much, and I feel sad because he's not fine.

...okay. It's done.

Not a little girl...

Yes, it's time to grow up. And I'm growing up. I'm not just girl, I'm becoming a woman. And it's so wonderful to realize that! I know that you, boys, can't understand what I'm saying. But I can feel the things happening inside myself and around myself and I know I'm leaving "the girl identity" behind. It's not a subject that I can explain, in fact, it's quite complicated. I just can say that it's consequence of the therapy.

I'm feeling freer, more confident. I feel as I'm leaving some bandages, I'm breaking some halls, I'm allowing to be myself (argh, strange sentence. Is it right?). It's the most important thing that could happen to me. No, it's a revolution, it's a real revolution. And it's just the beginning....there's a wonderful world full of friends, and discoveries, and mysteries that I'm just touching slightly...and I'm not afraid!

I'm happy today.

Can I deal?

Life is strange. Tomorrow I'll go back to my house, my job and my life. I really wanted to be an independent girl, but the "price" is really hard! Last week I left my "Belíssima" album at my parents home. I did not know, but this album had become a friend of mine. I felt lonenier without it than I was used to feel! The album is like a friend that always says the same: first "You're beautiful" by James Blunt, then Damien Rice...Carla Bruni, "Trick of Mind", and "Seven Days in Sunny June" by Jamiroquai...

Tomorrow I know that I'll do the same things that I do every Monday. And this is not exciting, it's not funny, it's not interesting, it's just the loneliness! :(

Oh, boys.

Hi from me

Hallo boys! How are you?? I'm getting better, yeah. I bought two books yesterday: one about International Political Economy (because I'm interested in this subject) and other about Children and Adolescent Law (because of my work). Also a Santanta album...and...er...a surprise. I'll tell you both in the right time, yeah.

I'm fine right now. Actually I'm feeling fine nowadays. Why, Priscila? Oh. I can't say. It's so silly...but it does not matter. I feel good, it's enough.

Kisses to you, boys. I love you! :)

Er...

Hallo boys! How are you?? I am...hmm...fine. Yep. A bit. A little bit. And very confused. It's not a kind of subject that should drive me crazy, but...it does. I'd like to be a very strong girl, with an ice-heart inside myself, ready to fight against whatever storm. But I am not! And I'd like to fly over the situation, I'd like to have lynx eyes to see deeply the situation that I'm facing now. But I don't have! And yes...if I told you, boys, you'd probably have pain on me. I know. But...maybe you, boys, could help me to understand who I am. I'm so lost! Who could help me?

It's like that song: "Só venha se for para o bem..." Please.

Hallo Hallo boys! How are you? I'm fine, getting better...I still have a shattered heart, but...what can we do? Life is not always so lovely to us, and we have to be patient and wise to face the circumstances without losing heart. Sometimes I think I'm so silly. But I can't change my mind and my feelings. And...sometimes I try to find out the reasons why these things need to happen. Why? Why? I don't know. I'd just like to find the right person. Oh Gosh. Where is he? Everything will be fine. I just don't know when it will happen. I hope it will be soon.