Sigh

Hallo, babies. How are you all? I am...hmm...so so.

The thing is: I don't know what I want. And I think he doesn't know what he wants. We just know each other for almost three months. Maybe the things happened too much fast...

I just know that he doesn't want to lost the contact. That's the reason why he brings music to me to listen. But the rest....I really don't know. I'm lost.

Take care, babies.

Next songs

I guess somebody is trying to reeducate my musical taste. Now I'm listening to Ozzy Osbourne and Randy Rhoads. He told me that Rhoads was a classical guitar musician that loved rock'n'roll and died in a tragic accident. I'm not sure, but...it's a coincidence? He knows that I studied classical piano for 10 years, and the two things that he loaned me have classical elements...Kiss with the Melbourne Symphony Orchestra and Ozzy with Randy. Well, dunno. Oh, and I loved "Flying High Again"...

Oh, yes. He didn't like James Morrison. How can somebody not like James Morrison? He should listen to him properly, I guess, hmph.

By the way, I bought "About a boy" Original Soundtrack and I loved it. Badly Drawn Boy is such a very talented guy. You can watch him singin' "Above you, below me" here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42EoK_yAVJ4

Take care, boys ;)

The truth

Oookay. I think I really like him. And I think I have to invite him to go out with me again. I'll get crazy if I don't. Aaand. The best part is that I have "Kiss Symphony" DVD that he loaned me. Kiss? Have you been watching a Kiss DVD, Priscila? Yeah, Kiss with Melbourne Orchestra. The act two is wonderful! I loved "Forever", "Shandi" and "Sure know something". And I have to gave back to him, don't I...?

And the best, best part of everything is that...I think he likes me too. But he's very shy. And I think he's really insecure about me. Silly boy. I like him. And I really need to be with him again...

Oh, I'd like to write a better entry but I'm so tired :( I'm going to have classes tomorrow and it's Father's Day! The teacher doesn't have a father? He doesn't have kids? Bah.

Take care, boys. Oh Jay, you're so lovely! "My brave girl..." I got so flattered ;) Wish me good luck again, please! :)

Love you.

PS.: You can watch Kiss singin' "Forever" here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1kGMpMy_7Fw It's a piece of the show. The guys are weird, but you have agree that the mix of rock and classical instruments is wonderful, isn't it? ;)

The story

We talked a lot. We laughed a lot. We kissed each other (oookay, not as many times as I'd like, I have to admitt...). We stayed together for about four hours and it was perfect. He's witty, funny, talkative. I'm witty, funny, talkative. A great couple, you know? I had a great night. But I've been thinking about everything and, yes, he's intelligent, interessant, smart...but he's also younger than me. And instead of the fact that, yeah, I'd go out with him again if I had the chance, I also think that he's not interested in the kind of relationship I'm interested. And even if he was, I don't know if the things would go as smooth as it should be, 'cause...well, just because he's younger.

Well. Our friends tried to pursuade him to invite me, but he didn't, even if I said to a friend that yeah, I'd go out with him if he want to. And why he didn't? 'Cause he thought: "No, she must be kidding, she wouldn't go out with me..." And he's so positive and optimist that it's even strange to think that he felt insecure about me. Weeell. It just proves that we can make mistakes if we can't trust ourselves. You know? You must trust yourself. And the things will just happen. Like last night happened...

Take care, booooys ;) Love you.

It just happened...

Oh boy, oh boy. I'm feeling like Rob Fleming. This is the last thing I was waiting for, I have to admitt. I would never have realised the whole thing if my friends had not said those foolish things. I mean...they were right. And me, that is a person that always thought that knew everything, me, I realised I know nothing. Nothing, you know? Nothing. I got scared, I'm still scared. I'm afraid 'cause I don't know if it will work out. I just want to talk to him, I just want to be with him, I just want to "feel" if we could get together. That's the reason why I'm going to invite him to go out with me tomorrow. I need to know. And yes, I feel attracted to him, and yes, I know that he feels attracted me, and he's smart, intelligent, interesting...and shy, of course. Oh heavens. Okay, everything will be fine, I'm sure. In fact, I'm just longing for being with him, God knows how I'm longing for this...I hope he's longing for the same ;)

Yes, this is girl is in love, it's true. What can I say? I wasn't looking for this...it just happened. And I'm not going to run away, I'm not going to hide myself, I'm not going to say that's nothing. I'm going to face the situation, to face him...to face myself.

Wish me good luck, okay? Love you.

Take care, boys ;)

~You really should listen to this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPUJIbXN0WY "Everything" by Michael Bublé is one of the most beautiful and delicious songs that I've listened lately. The videoclip is absolutely fab and Michael's voice is a present of God - and he himself is also delicious hohoho. Oh, and you can tell me if that guy is really Bono Vox...? :P